429 days of memories

Two years ago, almost to the day I wrote this post. It’s amazing how much life can change in a mere two years but I can say that I’m still NOT a good house wife. That has not changed. Sadly, I think housewifery is NOT in my cards although being a great mom is.

Ok, I’ve digressed.

Today, will be an interesting day. The Hubster starts back at work, Princess Peach starts back full-time at daycare in the nursery program and Little Dude starts full-time in the infant program at the daycare as well. Me, well I’ll be going home to look for a job. I don’t have a job and after I do my happy dance that I can pee in private, have some quiet time to myself, I know I will be sad.  Sad that I’m alone. Sad that my kids are being taken care of by someone else. Sad that I’m not with them. Sad that I don’t have a job. Just sad, sad, sad.

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I know I’m lucky. I know I’m blessed. I had 429 days at home with my kids. Not many people can say that they had that. This past year Princess Peach, Little Dude and myself were a team. We had our routine. We found our groove. And it worked for us.  Were there days and times that I wanted to run and hide? Sure. Were there times that I called The Hubster and asked him to rush home because everyone was screaming and I needed help? Of course! But there were days when life was just life and it was perfect enough for me.

Those were days when we played together. We always ate lunch together. When we did something silly and laughed together. When we had dance parties in the kitchen after naps together. When the three of us sat down on the floor and coloured a picture together. I got to watch an amazing relationship be created, and flourish between my children. There is nothing I love more than watching them together. It has been a blessing.

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I know The Hubster and I have chosen them to be in the best place. A place that loves them, nurtures them, educates them and helps them become the best little people they can be. I have no doubt it my mind about that!

But I look forward to pick up when I will be able to wrap my arms around them and excitedly learn about their day. Their day without me, without us as a team. And I will repeat this 5 days a week for months. I know Princess Peach will give me an entire run down but I will have to rely on the teachers and their report about Little Dude. We haven’t spent very much time apart since he was born on July 17, 2013. So being apart from him now will be new to me. New to both of us. I know he will thrive and grow. I’m excited for him and for me but can’t help to still be sad. I know the “school” year has just started but I can’t wait until Friday. When I have my team back with me for the weekend. I had 429 days of amazing memories and I wouldn’t change that for the world.

And so now we begin a new chapter. Wish us luck! I know we’ll need some :)

Comments

  1. kayla barda says:

    I hear you…I am also not cut out to be a housewife…I work and I miss my kids but I know that being in school and daycare is good for them and working out of the house is good for me too.

  2. I remember how hard it was to leave my oldest in daycare, but he loved it. The hard part ended up trying to get him to come home with me a the end of the day. I do love that I can work from home now though and get the best of both worlds. I hope you find your happy place too

  3. Jenn says:

    I totally get how you feel! I honestly feel that every time I go to work! I hate that I’m not home with them and I’m not there to give them 100% of my attention. It sucks! However, it is so healthy for both of you. You learn to enjoy the time you have together!

  4. Good luck in your job search. I think everything is going to work out for your family in perfecting timing. Hope the kids are falling into their new routines nicely.

  5. Sometimes being a housewife isn’t meant for everyone, do what ever it is that’ll make you happy!

  6. ninjamommers says:

    Good Luck Lady! Do what makes you happy!

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