See ya later 2015

seeya

This is not the post I ever would have imagined writing when 2015 started. I thought I would be writing about the mundane things I did this year and reflecting on what I can do better in 2016. No one could have predicted that my little, happy life would be shaken up like it was this past year with cancer. It still freaks me out when I hear it, when I read about it and when I think back that this was my life. Cancer. Breast Cancer. Really? This happened to me? It’s really devastating some days. But I’m not going to focus on the devastation today.

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When your life doesn’t pan out the way you imagined it will, you have choices in how you deal with the cards you are dealt at that time. These choices inevitably may not change the outcome but your outlook can change who you are, and how your story is written. As crazy as this sounds, I think I was the happiest this year than I have ever been. It may sound like an oxymoron but it’s not. Given the horrible news about cancer I made a choice. After 2 very sad, lonely and depressing weeks thinking I was dying, I made a choice to be happy. I’m not saying it was easy because some days it was not. But every single day no matter how shitty I felt I had choices to make and I always chose happy. I made a choice to see the beauty in everything and everyone. I made the choice to go out with friends and family all the time. I became a lady who lunches. I chose not to let little things bother me. I chose to face my fears head on no matter what the outcome. I chose not to let a breast cancer diagnosis define me. I chose to be vulnerable and to share my story with everyone. I chose to be loved. I chose not to let my body dictate what I wore and how I felt about myself. I chose to indulge in my favourite treats even if it was a little too frequent. I chose to be grateful for all of the people who thought about and prayed for me. I feel immense gratitude towards all the people who  helped me and my family through this time. I chose to take risks and do things I may not have done prior to my diagnosis.  I chose not to let losing my breasts define me. But overall, I chose to make millions of memories with my husband and kids no matter how small.

So as much as I have a list of things I would love to see  happen in 2016, I’m not going to write them down because one never knows what will happen tomorrow. Instead, I will take each new days as an opportunity to better myself, my family and those around me. And I will continue to choose happy. I will continue to be thankful for the village that I am surrounded by because that village is freaking amazing :) I am so happy that 2015 is behind me and that I’m starting 2016 from a place of health and happiness.

From my family to yours, I wish you all a happy, healthy and prosperous 2016.

Comments

  1. Amie Gaudet says:

    Good for you.
    You are facing a battle, but your outlook on life is truly inspiring!
    And, of course, I absolutely LOVE the cake you made! Lol

    I wish you a happy & hopefully healthy new year

  2. natalie says:

    You’re so inspirational and I’m so lucky and proud to call you my friend! Happy New Year. Buh-bye 2015. All good things for you in 2016. Xox

  3. mom2michael says:

    You have been an inspiration all this year as you faced this battle head-on and with grace and humour. I am so happy the battle is behind you and wish you nothing but happiness, health, and lots of fun in 2016! xo

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