At 6 months pregnant I signed up for BlissDom Canada. People on my Twitter feed were talking about it so, I looked into it on the website. It seemed interesting and something I might like to do. So obviously I bit the bullet and bought a ticket. I had no clue what I was getting into. How could I especially considering the fact that I would be going with my 2.5 month old! Crazy right? Well, I originally thought so. But I`m so happy that I made the decision to go.
When I started blogging in May of 2012, I did it for me and my friends. I didn`t think that other people would want to read about my life. I was told my entire life that I was a bad writer and not a strong English student. No matter how hard I worked on an essay it was never good enough or really “A” quality. It was frustrating. Through blogging I`ve come to see that I was am a good writer. I am a writer that engages her audience with humor and emotion. I am a story teller not an essay writer. I have a voice and things to say. And you, my readers want to read my words, my experiences, my life.
When I press publish on a post, I`m publishing me. I`m sharing everything I`m feeling no matter if it`s a story, a product review or a picture. I`m letting you into my life and luckily something resonates with each of you and you like reading what I have to stay.
So how does this go back to BlissDom? Well this weekend I was inspired. Inspired to take myself and you along on a journey. I am inspired to be a better person. In one talk the room was asked `what do you stand for`, not as a blogger, as a mother, a teacher, a wife, a daughter, a sister, or a friend. But what do I, Renee Kaiman, in all my nakedness stand for. Sadly, I couldn`t answer. I see myself as all of my other hats that I guess I have gotten lost in that somewhat. I am a-ok with this but I have dreams, aspirations, and goals and without knowing exactly what I stand for and who I am how can I go where I need to go.
I was also asked to create a personal tagline but how can I do that without knowing what I stand for. So I am going on a journey. I was to answer the above question an create a personal tagline. Its something that sums who I am up in a few short words. At first I felt shitty about myself that I couldn`t answer this, but now I feel excited, invigorated that I have lots of personal exploration to do.
I especially feel the importance of this as I am raising two very fantastic little people who are the next generation of world leaders, thinkers and changers. For me to inspire my children and lead them to greatness, I, as their parent have to check my self-doubt at the door. I realized this weekend that my fear of failure is what is holding me back at a lot of things. But, when it comes to my children, I have to throw that away and be fearless in doing, and leading. I want them to have the best role model possible so they can become the best people possible. When I face my fear of failure head on, I really think I will be a force to reckon with in everything I do.
So, BlissDom, thank you for giving me renewed excitement in my life and most of all in my writing. I feel that I got a much needed push that ignited a match to fuel my blogging. I feel overwhelmed by the amount of things I want to do to take my blog to the next level but I feel like I have made connections with people and brands to do so.
The next year will be a measure of how well I have done. By this time next year, when BlissDom 2014 is starting I want to walk in the door with those questions answered in order to be ready to be inspired all over again.
P.S. thank you to everyone who embraced (literally and figuratively) Little Dude. I really appreciate everyone being so understanding to having a newborn around.